Will be on my xanga and tumblr (mostly since it's easier 2 reach them out)
I currently active on http://shalizm-kireta.xanga.com/ and http://shalizmfizlediableetkireta.tumblr.com/
Which means I can't often be here 2 post something..so..I guess..I'll see U guys there ( I hope ~_~)
2/10/2010
4/02/2009
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3/17/2009
For Mr.Fauzie Syuaeb, I thank You
I just awake this noon, received a SMS which makes me shocked: My grieve and deep condolences to Mr.Fauzie Syuaeb--My Tutor in University of Prof.DR.Moestopo....my grieve for I can't be there to meet him anymore..
I still remember very well, how those days went. A class on morning and his speech in a serious-looking face though he's joking. I admired him so much as he inspired me to move on in this life, to grasp everything that we can, to be what we want to be no matter how the risk then will be, to fill our brain and empty spaces with all of the knowledge that we can get, and to do everything that we can in this life. Never to waste a second moment of it, because life is precious and those who never use it very much, was a fool.
I remember that morning class in 5th semester, filled with laughter.. when he, half jokingly told us of how the "Thesis and The Test" usually goes. How he said that we should defend something that we know were right no matter how The Professor will say next.
On the extra class at that saturday, I still remember how he looked so sorry at me when I asked his permission to go home sooner as I received the news that My Grandmother died that morning.
I never knew that he remember me from that day.
The next time I met him, was in the evening class on 7th semester.I heard a lot of stories about him: from his sickness as he went hospitalized after having a stroke attack, how everyone especially his students had missed him a lot, including me. So when I knew that He taught us on that class, I was so excited and so fascinated to heard all of his stories about his life and we should never made the same mistakes as he did before.
On my last semester,the 8th..I was having a hard time to go on..I stumbled upon many obstacles and went down so drastically. I even thought of not continuing my Thesis since I know that My Professors both were giving me such a hard time to completed just The first chapter, while most of my friends had move on to the third chapter...
I met him outside, as he sat and talking with his students..suddenly he called me. I was amazed that he even remember my full name.
"Never to give up because I know U can" was the last thing he told me,when I was having that conversation about my last Thesis..how he encouraged me to move on..it touched my heart so much that I suddenly had the will not to gave up that instant.
After that, I never met him again..I just heard stories about him from my juniors and my friends: His wife died and he was grieving that badly, then he found someone that he could truly loved so he chose to marry her, then now..I can't even believe it myself..He had gone..gone from this world..and I can't even be there just to say "Thank You" in front of his face..
A unique personality is what I will describe U,Mr.Fauzi Syuaeb. how U told us that we can called U by Ur nickname "Bang Ojie", how U taught us everything and told me not to gave up on everything, how that eyes glittering in such confidence that I can be the best..I hope these words can reached U..
"Bang Ojie..kami semua menyayangimu karena kau perduli pada kami.Dan aku tidak akan pernah lupa apa yang telah kau katakan padaku.Terima kasih atas apa yang telah kau berikan padaku selama ini.Semoga amal baikmu dapat diterima di Sisi ALLAH SWT..semoga kau mendapatkan kebahagian di alam sana.Amin"
I still remember very well, how those days went. A class on morning and his speech in a serious-looking face though he's joking. I admired him so much as he inspired me to move on in this life, to grasp everything that we can, to be what we want to be no matter how the risk then will be, to fill our brain and empty spaces with all of the knowledge that we can get, and to do everything that we can in this life. Never to waste a second moment of it, because life is precious and those who never use it very much, was a fool.
I remember that morning class in 5th semester, filled with laughter.. when he, half jokingly told us of how the "Thesis and The Test" usually goes. How he said that we should defend something that we know were right no matter how The Professor will say next.
On the extra class at that saturday, I still remember how he looked so sorry at me when I asked his permission to go home sooner as I received the news that My Grandmother died that morning.
I never knew that he remember me from that day.
The next time I met him, was in the evening class on 7th semester.I heard a lot of stories about him: from his sickness as he went hospitalized after having a stroke attack, how everyone especially his students had missed him a lot, including me. So when I knew that He taught us on that class, I was so excited and so fascinated to heard all of his stories about his life and we should never made the same mistakes as he did before.
On my last semester,the 8th..I was having a hard time to go on..I stumbled upon many obstacles and went down so drastically. I even thought of not continuing my Thesis since I know that My Professors both were giving me such a hard time to completed just The first chapter, while most of my friends had move on to the third chapter...
I met him outside, as he sat and talking with his students..suddenly he called me. I was amazed that he even remember my full name.
"Never to give up because I know U can" was the last thing he told me,when I was having that conversation about my last Thesis..how he encouraged me to move on..it touched my heart so much that I suddenly had the will not to gave up that instant.
After that, I never met him again..I just heard stories about him from my juniors and my friends: His wife died and he was grieving that badly, then he found someone that he could truly loved so he chose to marry her, then now..I can't even believe it myself..He had gone..gone from this world..and I can't even be there just to say "Thank You" in front of his face..
A unique personality is what I will describe U,Mr.Fauzi Syuaeb. how U told us that we can called U by Ur nickname "Bang Ojie", how U taught us everything and told me not to gave up on everything, how that eyes glittering in such confidence that I can be the best..I hope these words can reached U..
"Bang Ojie..kami semua menyayangimu karena kau perduli pada kami.Dan aku tidak akan pernah lupa apa yang telah kau katakan padaku.Terima kasih atas apa yang telah kau berikan padaku selama ini.Semoga amal baikmu dapat diterima di Sisi ALLAH SWT..semoga kau mendapatkan kebahagian di alam sana.Amin"
1/28/2009
Untuk Fans MYV di Indonesia
Kepada seluruh Fans MYV (Miyavi), kami mohon partisipasinya untuk ikut serta dalam petisi ini, cukup klik ke sini:
http://www.t hepeti tionsi te.com /1/bri ngmiya vitoin donesi a
Petisi ini merupakan usaha kami untuk bisa mendatangkan MYV ke Indonesia
Oleh, karena itu, kami mohon dukungannya dari seluruh fans sekalian
Terima kasih atas perhatiannya
10/24/2008
Thousand times
Thousand times that she wished to die,
Thousand times that she gave up to cry,
the end was her only beginning
of something yet to becoming
Painful days,painful ways
Her world spinning on and on
Sorrowful days,sorrowful ways
Her thoughts shredding on and on
Thousand times,she told herself not to drown
Thousand times,she knew her face turns to frown
Thousand times, she sung his songs to deny
Thousand times, she sought for his shadows to rely
Painful days,painful ways
To live yet caught to gloom on and on
Sorrowful days,sorrowful ways
To hide herself deeper and it's on and on
Her life never goes too far from misery
It was then she would said that it's her destiny
Happiness is something that was too fast
For it always comes after a blast
A Little Chat
A little girl sat on her chair, wondering
"Why the sky is so blue, not red?"
A little boy who sat beside her,thinking
"Because if it's red, someone's gonna be sad."
Then the little girl asked,
"Why did we smile when we're happy?"
The little boy replied,
"Because we can't smile when we're sadly."
The little girl asked, once again
"Why can't we turn back the time?"
The little boy paused,then replied
"Because, time never waits for anyone."
10/13/2008
The Song of Gloom
She gazed up at the sky, her eyes seems to cry
She holds her breath to deny
Bite her lips so as to silence her lie
She closed her eyelids tightly, tears begin to dry
She laughed silently, looking back to her hands slightly
She was holding her pains to rely
She knows that She can't be holding His images in dye
She embrace the empty sky
She was The Forbidden Child, among The Dreamer who reside
Black and White wings are her symbols to the light
Her unconstant emotions were The Might
Confidently She'll shine bright
Yet, She drowned to her Darkened Core
Bleeding in her Red Blooded Heaven
Screaming on her sore
While Sublime Nightmares treated her as Hevn
She was bind with existence
Locked within The Cage
Blindly turns to Rage
Suffocating to erase persistence
She gazed up at the sky, her eyes seems to cry
She holds her breath to deny
Bite her lips so as to silence her lie
She closed her eyelids tightly, tears begin to dry
She was wounded yet still deny
She called her sinister to rely
She believed it was her way to fly
As she knew He has soared through The Sky
10/09/2008
Report#2 Cute Dolls?!
Cute Asian Dolls by www.jun-doll.com now is around n somehow I missed it ~_~!
So, if any1 finds any clue where 2 buy, plz contact me^0^
Report #1
Hv U ever noticed when U'r so obsessed onto something, suddenly U'r face changed 2 a scary grin?? Well, I haven't till lately my Sis told me that I am. 2 be honest I am suprised, cuz 1st thing on my thought is : "Scary?? How could it be??"
Cuz as far as I concern,I didn't showed that expressions yet. Nevertheless, it is others who'll sees us not ourselves. Well, we do need a mirror 2 help, right?
To be honest, For me face n expressions is something that attractive whether it's frown or cherish. Well, that was one of the signs that we are alive--we're humans not robots. Though sometimes it is suggested that we should remain frowned when dealing with emotional matters and also laugh to let go of stress.
For some people expression is their ultimate weapon. Why? cuz with a frowned-looking face no one will be able 2 read how U'r emotions going so as to prevent others 2 read U'r mind as well. But in contrary, there are those who are easily 2 be read just with their expressions. And for mind-readers these people are easily 2 be used.
Even so, those who tends 2 be a frowned-looking sometimes finds herself/himself hard 2 express what they intend 2 say, as it's hardly appears on their face. While, those who are easily 2 be read sometimes having their hard times to hide their feelings.
So, which is U'r face profile..are U a frowned or "an expressionist"?
Whatever it is there's one thing U should remember (and it also goes for me as well ^0^):
As long as we live improvements can be made, so Do it! makeU'r life feel much more alive ^0^
Speechless
Speechless---lately I am, 2 much on thought bout 2morrow, 2 much on thought bout sorrow. Well, workin out on manga-making is awesome as it spirited my lone soul again but lately I'm losing the mood again as the original idea slowly faded away.Guess, I really need a special note 2 record it all ^0^!
Then again, somehow I feel so mizerable. Which is which and who is who---2 many bad things r happen in a day #_#
Well, starting 2day I'll be writing down some of my reports on almost everything so feel free 2 check out n give me U'r comment (preety plz ?? ~_~!)
8/17/2008
Another Story : Box Of Hope
Shalizm's here (Sha with G of Course), we would like to introduce U 2 our new spin off story from Box Of Hope (Sha's unfinished project from 2004). Actually we wanted 2 post it's manga here since we don't hv time 2 finished it all, so instead we decided 2 put it in a short prose here.
take a look n do enjoy ^0^
Box Of Hope
Phase 1
There's always a question of Who I am and Why I live, yet till today as I stood upon my feet to this solid dark ground, I found that the answer is none.
So, I am no one and I don't have the goals to live.
Then Why am I here...now??
I walk straight, rush my way through the crowd upon me. Careless enough that I dropped the bag. I walk back, as I realized then took the effort to grab it.
"So..this's life for me"
"So much of a bitter plum than a tasteful grape"
That familiar voice echoed in my head, making me feel so calm all of a sudden.
I keep myself to stand in reality. Impossible, He can't be here not in a crowded street of Durgana, Paradise of Undine. He doesn't even know that I'm here, I had ran from him 5000 years ago. So it was a nonsense that He still alive because He was immortal unlike me.
Eventhough my head keep telling me the fact yet my feet was walking towards it. As if losing control of myself, I walk unconsciously.
Eventually, after I pushed myself away from the crowd, I saw a tall, dark haired man, about the age of 20s or so. He was wearing a dark t-shirt with wings embedded on the back and a dark jeans. He wore a chain that tucked with his wallet. I gasped as I realized that He wore the same yet who is this man. I stood there, watching him humming low on the side of Dryad's Bridge. He was looking into the water.
I stood there, motionless, never know what I should do. Should I call Him?? No, there's a 100% chance that it wasn't Him. But, what if it was Him? what if He managed to lived??
My mind still playing tricks with me and I'm holding myself against it.
Just then, in a sudden he look straight to me. I can't help the tears which falling from my eyes now,as I saw that familiar face---it was Him, the one whom always resides in my heart...it was Him yet How can it be??
"Hope? is that you??"
I look down and silently cry, telling myself to brace it because once I looked up again He'll gone.. again..just like before.
"Hope?"
I hear the footsteps rushed towards me--almost running. I feel that He grabbed my hand, hugged me tight, so tight. The warmth that spread within His hands brought tranquility into my heart, and the beat of his heart that was closed in my ears gave me the feeling that I was home again. No! I pushed myself from him.
Almost cried, I yelled, "Why are you here?? how can you even stand here as if there was nothing happened?"
take a look n do enjoy ^0^
Box Of Hope
Phase 1
There's always a question of Who I am and Why I live, yet till today as I stood upon my feet to this solid dark ground, I found that the answer is none.
So, I am no one and I don't have the goals to live.
Then Why am I here...now??
I walk straight, rush my way through the crowd upon me. Careless enough that I dropped the bag. I walk back, as I realized then took the effort to grab it.
"So..this's life for me"
"So much of a bitter plum than a tasteful grape"
That familiar voice echoed in my head, making me feel so calm all of a sudden.
I keep myself to stand in reality. Impossible, He can't be here not in a crowded street of Durgana, Paradise of Undine. He doesn't even know that I'm here, I had ran from him 5000 years ago. So it was a nonsense that He still alive because He was immortal unlike me.
Eventhough my head keep telling me the fact yet my feet was walking towards it. As if losing control of myself, I walk unconsciously.
Eventually, after I pushed myself away from the crowd, I saw a tall, dark haired man, about the age of 20s or so. He was wearing a dark t-shirt with wings embedded on the back and a dark jeans. He wore a chain that tucked with his wallet. I gasped as I realized that He wore the same yet who is this man. I stood there, watching him humming low on the side of Dryad's Bridge. He was looking into the water.
I stood there, motionless, never know what I should do. Should I call Him?? No, there's a 100% chance that it wasn't Him. But, what if it was Him? what if He managed to lived??
My mind still playing tricks with me and I'm holding myself against it.
Just then, in a sudden he look straight to me. I can't help the tears which falling from my eyes now,as I saw that familiar face---it was Him, the one whom always resides in my heart...it was Him yet How can it be??
"Hope? is that you??"
I look down and silently cry, telling myself to brace it because once I looked up again He'll gone.. again..just like before.
"Hope?"
I hear the footsteps rushed towards me--almost running. I feel that He grabbed my hand, hugged me tight, so tight. The warmth that spread within His hands brought tranquility into my heart, and the beat of his heart that was closed in my ears gave me the feeling that I was home again. No! I pushed myself from him.
Almost cried, I yelled, "Why are you here?? how can you even stand here as if there was nothing happened?"
7/06/2008
Memories Within As Hope Will Begin
When U looking up at U'r phonebook, scrolling down those names within, U might realize how peopla had come n go in U'r life. They gave U such story whether it's good or bad, whether it's happy or sad. What Sha would called it? it called Memories.
Memories are fragile, they could break easily as U getting 2 know others more or vice versa. In the other hand, memories sometimes are the only thing that left in this world if U had left by those whom U loved most. Though Death is natural, still sometimes it's hard 2 face it. yet, with memories U always know he/she still live in U'r heart. They're alive within U'r memories of them.
Even so, life has 2 go on. Reminisce is a must sometimes yet we must step forward as the time's ticking fast.
If U fall down 2 U'r knees n got none who'll comfort, notice that this world is 2 cruel, feeling best 2 die, depression and agony was U'r meal everyday-----Just remember this : As long as U still have the conscience and tries 2 live without hurting some1 else, there'll will be help..came out of nowhere.
Why Sha is so confident bout this? Cuz it's true, though this world is cruel, though money is all the purpose 2 live, though one of U'r bloods-related could ruins U'r life...4 those who'd done the Deed and tries 2 live without hurting any1, help shall be there cuz Karma exist. Though the solution and the generousity sometimes wasn't include ASAP, still there's a slight chance of hope.
Believe it or not, hope and memories could mixed themeselves n provides us strength 2 face the worst ever. Maybe what Aristotle said that " I am alive when I'm thinking " is true, still hope n memories would be driven U 2 live the life as lively as U can.
So just enjoy, enjoy the smile in U'r face, enjoy the sound of children in the afternoon, enjoy the rush hour as U saw people walkin here n there...enjoy the hot sun rays, enjoy the cold wind, enjoy every simple things in U'r life n be thankful 2 be alive.
PS: This post is dedicated 2
1. My Family cuz 2 these times we're facin the worst n I'm grateful that every1 stays with me till the very end---sorry 4 draggin all of U inside this blackhole....if only I hadn't done that..maybe we could buy some time. It's hard struggling 2 fight my very own....thx 4 bein there 4 me.
2. 4 ABS, sorry 2 kept U bothered all these times. U'r helpin me very much in almost everythin..U'r the best,bro ^^
3.Mr.Fauzie, my deep condolensces for U'r wife's death...I hope God will give U n U'r family strength 2 face everything.
4.J-Sin, thx a lot 4 all the stories U shared with me..lookin 4ward 2 hear U'r music ^^
Memories are fragile, they could break easily as U getting 2 know others more or vice versa. In the other hand, memories sometimes are the only thing that left in this world if U had left by those whom U loved most. Though Death is natural, still sometimes it's hard 2 face it. yet, with memories U always know he/she still live in U'r heart. They're alive within U'r memories of them.
Even so, life has 2 go on. Reminisce is a must sometimes yet we must step forward as the time's ticking fast.
If U fall down 2 U'r knees n got none who'll comfort, notice that this world is 2 cruel, feeling best 2 die, depression and agony was U'r meal everyday-----Just remember this : As long as U still have the conscience and tries 2 live without hurting some1 else, there'll will be help..came out of nowhere.
Why Sha is so confident bout this? Cuz it's true, though this world is cruel, though money is all the purpose 2 live, though one of U'r bloods-related could ruins U'r life...4 those who'd done the Deed and tries 2 live without hurting any1, help shall be there cuz Karma exist. Though the solution and the generousity sometimes wasn't include ASAP, still there's a slight chance of hope.
Believe it or not, hope and memories could mixed themeselves n provides us strength 2 face the worst ever. Maybe what Aristotle said that " I am alive when I'm thinking " is true, still hope n memories would be driven U 2 live the life as lively as U can.
So just enjoy, enjoy the smile in U'r face, enjoy the sound of children in the afternoon, enjoy the rush hour as U saw people walkin here n there...enjoy the hot sun rays, enjoy the cold wind, enjoy every simple things in U'r life n be thankful 2 be alive.
PS: This post is dedicated 2
1. My Family cuz 2 these times we're facin the worst n I'm grateful that every1 stays with me till the very end---sorry 4 draggin all of U inside this blackhole....if only I hadn't done that..maybe we could buy some time. It's hard struggling 2 fight my very own....thx 4 bein there 4 me.
2. 4 ABS, sorry 2 kept U bothered all these times. U'r helpin me very much in almost everythin..U'r the best,bro ^^
3.Mr.Fauzie, my deep condolensces for U'r wife's death...I hope God will give U n U'r family strength 2 face everything.
4.J-Sin, thx a lot 4 all the stories U shared with me..lookin 4ward 2 hear U'r music ^^
4/21/2008
Stop Bullying in School
This are the slogan that Sha had seen when passes the street. It was placed in front of a Senior High School. Let’s just say High School J. somehow, it reminds Sha of some old memories, which Sha didn’t ever want 2 remember since it was so painful enough to bear.
Anyways, on Sha’s era---when Sha’s in Junior or Senior High School----bullying is often happened. Though it wasn’t that extreme as today, but it still happens. It’s simple, senior in school came to you, asking for your money and if you didn’t gave them; they’ll just beat you out. Not to kill you of course, merely to give you a lesson to obey them. These often happen to the boys.
What about the girls?
Mostly those who became The Victim suffer mentally. For, their girl friends at school will gossiping her around, talking sinisterly to her, influenced other girls not to be friend with her, or even locked her in the toilet as there’s nobody around. Shortly they’ll be doing everything to get you out of their way. Cuz they don’t like your face, don’t like your so snobbish attitude (as they called it, but actually they are the snobbish), they don’t like your existence as you easily enter the chat between the boys, etc. Mainly they dislike you so much.
Well, that’s in Sha’s era. What about today?
It’s worst. The Victim will suffer not just mentally but physically cuz their girl friend beating her out, throwing out her bags and books even her chair and desk. They will certainly try to kill you or either way to force you onto suicide. This condition not just happens in Japan, but now in Indonesia as well.
Well, your senior won’t bother to kick you out from car after they rob your money, they leave you somewhere else empty handed. Or your junior acting as she or he ruled the whole school, acting like a b**** just becuz they got the money, they’re parents donated a lot on School funds, they’re an actor or an actress and they needed special treat from teachers and their so exist group. Once they got the chance they stab you from the back.
That’s quite a life in school now.
Not to mention the gap that keeps wider every time between The Exist group----which is richer, mostly dumb, stylish, fashionable, etc and The Non-Exist group---which mostly smarter, just a common student who obeys rules, etc. What about those in between? They try hard 2 survived in between, notice there’s no way to go. This is the culture before and still happens now as Sha speaks.
About two years ago, there’s a suicide epidemic happened (Sha doesn’t exactly remember when----sorry ~~!) in some rural areas. Those children committed suicide due to economical matters. They feel embarrassed as their friends bullied her or him for she or he didn’t pay school fee. Mostly, they came from poor families. Such a pity to hear it as they----who supposed to be the cheerful, young and happy children committed suicide so easily…without even knows what their parents would feel.
Death is not the answer, you can’t run or hide from trouble. Instead, braced it with your might, fight them cuz it’s your right to live and to be happy.
Sadly, these words are being forgotten so easily. They who drown in sadness often runaway from everything, believing that to escape is the only way to pass through. For the others, Brutality seems as the cure for hatred… a perfect formula to destroy youngsters these days.
Bullying not just happens in school but in some university too. STPDN, for Indonesian this acronyms surely will ring something. Sha believe all of you will remember how The Victims dies as their seniors beating them so hard and it was all fine for the faculty— though not all of them, but some of them, just close their eyes. They—the seniors says it’s part of field training: they have to strong both physically and mentally… that’s just another excuses to get your wrath satisfy.
But thanks to the expose of media, this case has risen in the air. The facts are being told and law has been put for the guilty.
What about you then?
Have you ever been a victim of bullying?? If so, do please put your comments here. Sha will tries to cheer you up then ^0^
Cuz sadly but true, Sha is one of the victims too.
So here, Sha wants to encourage you to be The Fighter, go fight and defend yourself…you have the right to live, to be happy, to be you becuz we are so special… so special than others. Be Proud to be U ^0^
Anyways, on Sha’s era---when Sha’s in Junior or Senior High School----bullying is often happened. Though it wasn’t that extreme as today, but it still happens. It’s simple, senior in school came to you, asking for your money and if you didn’t gave them; they’ll just beat you out. Not to kill you of course, merely to give you a lesson to obey them. These often happen to the boys.
What about the girls?
Mostly those who became The Victim suffer mentally. For, their girl friends at school will gossiping her around, talking sinisterly to her, influenced other girls not to be friend with her, or even locked her in the toilet as there’s nobody around. Shortly they’ll be doing everything to get you out of their way. Cuz they don’t like your face, don’t like your so snobbish attitude (as they called it, but actually they are the snobbish), they don’t like your existence as you easily enter the chat between the boys, etc. Mainly they dislike you so much.
Well, that’s in Sha’s era. What about today?
It’s worst. The Victim will suffer not just mentally but physically cuz their girl friend beating her out, throwing out her bags and books even her chair and desk. They will certainly try to kill you or either way to force you onto suicide. This condition not just happens in Japan, but now in Indonesia as well.
Well, your senior won’t bother to kick you out from car after they rob your money, they leave you somewhere else empty handed. Or your junior acting as she or he ruled the whole school, acting like a b**** just becuz they got the money, they’re parents donated a lot on School funds, they’re an actor or an actress and they needed special treat from teachers and their so exist group. Once they got the chance they stab you from the back.
That’s quite a life in school now.
Not to mention the gap that keeps wider every time between The Exist group----which is richer, mostly dumb, stylish, fashionable, etc and The Non-Exist group---which mostly smarter, just a common student who obeys rules, etc. What about those in between? They try hard 2 survived in between, notice there’s no way to go. This is the culture before and still happens now as Sha speaks.
About two years ago, there’s a suicide epidemic happened (Sha doesn’t exactly remember when----sorry ~~!) in some rural areas. Those children committed suicide due to economical matters. They feel embarrassed as their friends bullied her or him for she or he didn’t pay school fee. Mostly, they came from poor families. Such a pity to hear it as they----who supposed to be the cheerful, young and happy children committed suicide so easily…without even knows what their parents would feel.
Death is not the answer, you can’t run or hide from trouble. Instead, braced it with your might, fight them cuz it’s your right to live and to be happy.
Sadly, these words are being forgotten so easily. They who drown in sadness often runaway from everything, believing that to escape is the only way to pass through. For the others, Brutality seems as the cure for hatred… a perfect formula to destroy youngsters these days.
Bullying not just happens in school but in some university too. STPDN, for Indonesian this acronyms surely will ring something. Sha believe all of you will remember how The Victims dies as their seniors beating them so hard and it was all fine for the faculty— though not all of them, but some of them, just close their eyes. They—the seniors says it’s part of field training: they have to strong both physically and mentally… that’s just another excuses to get your wrath satisfy.
But thanks to the expose of media, this case has risen in the air. The facts are being told and law has been put for the guilty.
What about you then?
Have you ever been a victim of bullying?? If so, do please put your comments here. Sha will tries to cheer you up then ^0^
Cuz sadly but true, Sha is one of the victims too.
So here, Sha wants to encourage you to be The Fighter, go fight and defend yourself…you have the right to live, to be happy, to be you becuz we are so special… so special than others. Be Proud to be U ^0^
To The Hydeist
So are U a big fans of Hyde (Haido) of L'arc~En~Ciel (Laruku)
Go Check his status here :www.hyde.com
And Leave U'r comments there ^0^
4/09/2008
The Indigo
Do U know, the children or those people who have spiritual powers are called The Indigo. It said that The Indigo, often using their ears instead of believing their eyes. Because, The Indigos are often sees what mostly others cannot see such as Spirits, Prophecies, etc.
Even so, they still like any other people. They like to socialize, enjoying parties, hang out with their friends.
So, if U meet an Indigo do please treat him or her as a common people. Because sometimes, being the special aren't always good.
Below are some articles Sha managed by www.wikipedia.org
Indigo children refers to a New Age belief that some children, especially those born after the late 1970s, represent a higher state of human evolution. The term itself is a reference to the belief that such children have an indigo colored aura.[1] Beliefs concerning the exact nature of Indigo children vary, with some believing that they have paranormal abilities such as the ability to read minds, and others that they are distinguished from non-Indigo children merely by more conventional traits such as increased empathy and creativity.
Origins
The term Indigo children originates from the 1982 book "Understanding Your Life Through Color," by Nancy Ann Tappe. Tappe, a synesthete and psychic, claimed to possess the ability to perceive people's auras. She wrote that during the late 1970s she began noticing that many children were being born with "indigo" auras. Today, she estimates that 70 percent of children age 15 to 25 and 97 percent of children under ten are "Indigo."[1][2]
The idea of Indigo children was later popularized by the 1998 book The Indigo Children: The New Kids Have Arrived, written by the husband-and-wife team of Lee Carroll and Jan Tober.[3] According to Carroll he learned about the concept of indigo children while channeling a being known as Kryon, Master angelic energy. Tober has said that she and Carroll do not talk much about Kryon in interviews because they see this as being a potential barrier to them reaching out to mainstream audiences that exist outside of the New Age movement.[4]
Some children never know Characteristics and beliefs
According to New Age beliefs Indigo children are highly sensitive with a clear sense of self-definition and a strong feeling that they need to make a significant difference in the world. They are empathic and can easily detect or are in tune with the thoughts of others, and are naturally drawn to matters concerning mysteries, spirituality, the paranormal and the occult, while opposing unquestioned authority and contradictory to convention. They are also said to feel a strong sense of entitlement. Some beliefs hold that they are often labeled with the psychiatric diagnoses of Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder (ADHD), Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD), Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and also Autism, and that they become unsociable when not around other Indigo Children. They are also believed to be prone to depression and sleep disorders such as insomnia and persistent nightmaresthey have such a gift until they are older
Criticism
According to psychiatric expert Russell Barkley, the New Age movement has yet to produce empirical evidence of the existence of Indigo children and the 17 traits most commonly attributed to them were so vague they could describe "most of the people most of the time" and put him in mind of the Forer effect. Barkley also expressed concern that labeling a disruptive child an "indigo" may delay proper diagnosis and treatment that may help the child.[10][11] Others have advised that many of the traits of indigo children could be more prosaically interpreted as simple arrogance and selfish individualism, which parents with New Age beliefs see as being something that they are not.[12]
It has also been hypothesized that rather than being a new step in human evolution, the Indigo phenomena may be the reaction of children watching television shows with an emphasis on magic and New Age-compatible language. An example of this was illustrated in a Dallas Observer article discussing indigo children, a reporter recorded the following interaction between a man who worked with indigo children, and a purported indigo child:
"Are you an indigo?" he asked Dusk. The boy looked at him shyly and nodded. "I'm an avatar," Dusk said. "I can recognize the four elements of earth, wind, water and fire. The next avatar won't come for 100 years." The man seemed impressed.[11]
Readers of the Dallas Observer later wrote in to inform the newspaper that the child's response appeared to be taken from the storyline of Avatar: The Last Airbender; a children's cartoon showing on Nickelodeon at the time of the interview. The editor of the Dallas Observer later admitted they were not aware of the possible connection until readers brought it to their attention.[13]
[edit] Education
Although the mainstream teaching profession does not recognize New Age beliefs about the existence of Indigo children some alternative education groups have set up programs based around the concept.[3][14]
According to psychiatric expert Russell Barkley, the New Age movement has yet to produce empirical evidence of the existence of Indigo children and the 17 traits most commonly attributed to them were so vague they could describe "most of the people most of the time" and put him in mind of the Forer effect. Barkley also expressed concern that labeling a disruptive child an "indigo" may delay proper diagnosis and treatment that may help the child.[10][11] Others have advised that many of the traits of indigo children could be more prosaically interpreted as simple arrogance and selfish individualism, which parents with New Age beliefs see as being something that they are not.[12]
It has also been hypothesized that rather than being a new step in human evolution, the Indigo phenomena may be the reaction of children watching television shows with an emphasis on magic and New Age-compatible language. An example of this was illustrated in a Dallas Observer article discussing indigo children, a reporter recorded the following interaction between a man who worked with indigo children, and a purported indigo child:
"Are you an indigo?" he asked Dusk. The boy looked at him shyly and nodded. "I'm an avatar," Dusk said. "I can recognize the four elements of earth, wind, water and fire. The next avatar won't come for 100 years." The man seemed impressed.[11]
Readers of the Dallas Observer later wrote in to inform the newspaper that the child's response appeared to be taken from the storyline of Avatar: The Last Airbender; a children's cartoon showing on Nickelodeon at the time of the interview. The editor of the Dallas Observer later admitted they were not aware of the possible connection until readers brought it to their attention.[13]
[edit] Education
Although the mainstream teaching profession does not recognize New Age beliefs about the existence of Indigo children some alternative education groups have set up programs based around the concept.[3][14]
To The Dears
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4/08/2008
Eventually Come To An End
Lately, things went out very hard for Sha cuz My Lecturer keep complainin bout this n that on my mini-thesis..stressful,definetely cuz it's endless n I've got limited time 2 catch...
So, instead of crying again n again I've decide 2 have a faith in me by saying : "I'm taming a Lion right now n I'll be the only person who smiles in the end. Everything eventually will come to an end...and so are this painfull words from The Lion n it's disgusting methods---as it turn over every thing that it said be4.
Still, with these page, Sha would like 2 thank :
1.God, without the faith I'll be insane in a second
2.My Parents, who keep cheering me up day by day---I Luv U guys
3.My Sisters, without the stories U all shared with me, I still stuck with all the bad things
4. Mr.Fauzie Syuaeb, for his words not 2 give up
5. G, who had always be there whenever I need 2 hear his voices
6.ABS, for all his help these days
And For U, wo open, see, n read all of my posts here
I Luv U all Guys,
Wish that this Sanctuary will be ours 2 keep 4 eternity
4/07/2008
Just A Poem
Boku wa Hitori
Hitori kiri no kowashite
boku ni baka
kangaeteru yo"Naze ni naideshou?"
sabishii
kanashii
Hitori kiri no namida
samayou hanashiteiru
"Ne, ano hito..tasukete kudasai yo!"
boku no yume
tada isshou ni
asai ne
inoru ni
subete negai no koe
kikoemasu ka?
Hitori kiri no sadame
boku ni baka
fukaku kangaeteru
"Naze ni, boku o aganai ka?"
Sabishii
kanashii
Namida no ame
kokoro ni dake
inochi ni negai yo
tada dakishimete
Hitori kiri no kowashite
boku ni baka
aikawarazu ni, kangaeteru yo
"Sayonara..atashi dake no hito"
egao ni
eiein ni
Soshite, Boku wa Hitori
Hitori kiri no kowashite
boku ni baka
kangaeteru yo"Naze ni naideshou?"
sabishii
kanashii
Hitori kiri no namida
samayou hanashiteiru
"Ne, ano hito..tasukete kudasai yo!"
boku no yume
tada isshou ni
asai ne
inoru ni
subete negai no koe
kikoemasu ka?
Hitori kiri no sadame
boku ni baka
fukaku kangaeteru"Naze ni, boku o aganai ka?"
Sabishii
kanashii
Namida no ame
kokoro ni dake
inochi ni negai yo
tada dakishimete
Hitori kiri no kowashite
boku ni baka
aikawarazu ni, kangaeteru yo
"Sayonara..atashi dake no hito"
egao ni
eiein ni
Soshite, Boku wa Hitori
3/25/2008
If Lonely Kills U
Did U ever felt so lone like everyone abandoned U, they forgot about U ? even if U'r there, they weren't even realized that U'r exist..
If so,what would U do?
No one can hide from the feeling of lonely, nobody even want 2 feel it.
But it's always happens..true that Humans soon will die and they will entered an endless road on another world all alone. True that we have to stand and fight for our own sake by ourself..all alone.
If lonely kills U so much, there's not much to do except avoiding it. Let U'r soul at ease, put U'r thought onto something new or getting busy with some other activities that U can find. Don't even let U'r thoughts or feelings of lone driven U to do something bad. Don't let U'rself drown in the blackeness of lone. Though there are some who lived through the days by the blackness as their company...but it's not fair 4 U'r own sake.
Why? cuz the more U'r drown with it, the more it kills U. Pain which caused by these will surely affected U'r own perception 2 others. U become so paranoid, sceptic, so hopeless 2 enter a new neighborhood cuz U know they won't even accept U. Those negative thoughts soon will letting U 2 enter the world of no one, except U who dwells in it. U will start to find other support, by running from reality. U feels that fantasy is always welcomed U, as if U'r home. They accept U as what U are without even seeing or noticed the goods within U.
U thought U'r world is cheerful, but others may find that it's gloomy. They'll start 2 call U "A Geek" or "A Freak" or any others. How do U feel then?
Giving up with it even if there are some people who offer their hands 2 U ? or Refused 2 accept everything from every1 cuz U know they won't even be there when U need them most?
Which way would U choose? Sha would love 2 know cuz believe it, Sha has living thorough it.
So Please, Post U'r comment here or just contact me personally with shafebri@gmail.com
Sha will be helping U 200% guarantee ^0^
If so,what would U do?
No one can hide from the feeling of lonely, nobody even want 2 feel it.
But it's always happens..true that Humans soon will die and they will entered an endless road on another world all alone. True that we have to stand and fight for our own sake by ourself..all alone.
If lonely kills U so much, there's not much to do except avoiding it. Let U'r soul at ease, put U'r thought onto something new or getting busy with some other activities that U can find. Don't even let U'r thoughts or feelings of lone driven U to do something bad. Don't let U'rself drown in the blackeness of lone. Though there are some who lived through the days by the blackness as their company...but it's not fair 4 U'r own sake.
Why? cuz the more U'r drown with it, the more it kills U. Pain which caused by these will surely affected U'r own perception 2 others. U become so paranoid, sceptic, so hopeless 2 enter a new neighborhood cuz U know they won't even accept U. Those negative thoughts soon will letting U 2 enter the world of no one, except U who dwells in it. U will start to find other support, by running from reality. U feels that fantasy is always welcomed U, as if U'r home. They accept U as what U are without even seeing or noticed the goods within U.
U thought U'r world is cheerful, but others may find that it's gloomy. They'll start 2 call U "A Geek" or "A Freak" or any others. How do U feel then?
Giving up with it even if there are some people who offer their hands 2 U ? or Refused 2 accept everything from every1 cuz U know they won't even be there when U need them most?
Which way would U choose? Sha would love 2 know cuz believe it, Sha has living thorough it.
So Please, Post U'r comment here or just contact me personally with shafebri@gmail.com
Sha will be helping U 200% guarantee ^0^
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